Intrepidation

Ok, so I'm not dead, in case you were wondering.

I just feel that way most of the time.

I'm still "looking for life", even though I'm supposed to have found it in Christ

John gave a particularly effective sermon on John 11 this morning.

Why did Jesus let Lazarus die and stay dead for four days?

Why did he let Mary and Martha suffer that grief?

In the end His raising him back to life glorified God and proved His divinity.

So you could say I'm dying on the inside.

Well, then let it happen.

Let it die.

Better now than some time down the road.

Gimme your worst God, I'll prove there's some self-will left until there really isn't.

And then you will raise me back to Life.

See you on the other side.